Ngwatilo

Asking some fundamental questions this week.
Like, what is the mission and vision of Ngwatilo, what is the purpose of ngwatilo.com. Is it a marketing tool, a place to think publicly, just a blog about my life? A space for poetry? Merely page poetry? Is this a travelogue?

I hope yall know that the design of the page has never been “complete” or “done for now” by any means.

But when I have techi issues with my Mac, or accompanying software, will I note them here? Even if they are music related? Where is Ngwatilo or any of her other selves going to be next year? Will this space track one or all those journeys? is it relevant whether or not ngwatilo has a child or not, is pregnant and not keeping it, or trying to get her father well? Or what she thinks about kaz’s album, and the place of poetry in it, who her friends are, whether she’s recently tested for HIV, or can’t stand the idea of sex altogether?! What if she’s a flaming queen, or loves to read comic books, or is actually a housewife? Is any of the stuff here true anyway? Is she seeing anyone? Who cares and why?
Does climate change have a place on ngwatilo.com, in the real Ngwatilo’s life, why and for how many words?

Why am I here? Why do you do what you do? Is it acceptable to fall into something, or someone, is it acceptable not to ask your self why you bother breathing, and if you don’t do it consciously, then what you do with your breathe? Does it matter, isn’t the oxygen there to be breathed? Is there a difference between truth and fact, and can either always be clearly ascertained or us there faith involved there as well. Why do you have what you have, and what will you do with it, if you know enough to recognize that the difference between you and s/he who has not has nothing to do with you or your anythingness.

I think I’m going to go away for a while. Ill be better when I come back. Promise.